I met with my mentor for the first time yesterday. It went well. It was my first trip ever down to NYC, and all in all, it was pretty amazing. I'm left with a whole lot of questions though, and after meeting with Dan I think that I am seeing things a little differently.
Lately I've been drowning a little bit, and feeling in over my head. So much so, that I am stalling. I've been getting too caught up in all the other stuff that goes along with doing what we're doing, and forgetting where to start. I think that I've been so worried about having huge ideas, and conceptual motivations that I've gotten ahead of myself. I need to strip down and pull back a little bit.
Meeting with Dan reminded me where it all comes from: within. My solution is to relax a little bit and just let myself do what feels right. I'm going to be less concerned with feeling so much pressure to create a particular type of something, and just create. I need to go out and shoot as much as I can, and then worry about some of the other stuff. That's just how I function, and I know that's the only way that I'm going to create anything worth anything.
I guess the real trouble I am having is bridging the gap. I get self expression. I get Larger concepts. Reconciling the two is where I seem to have problems. Turning these vehicles of self into something that actually has a greater meaning or importance. It's funny, because I know how to do it, I've done it before, but thinking about it too much before hand has ground my gears to a shuddering halt.
I've got to get out there and just do what feels right.